Fortunately

I’m not Nonchalant

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so I’ll talk about you to everyone I know. I’ll tell my friends and family how you’re my favorite person in the world, even when you don’t see it. I’ll share the little moments, even the smallest things that remind me of you, because you’re always on my mind.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so I’ll always make sure you’re okay, even if it means I have to ask a million times. It’s not a burden, it’s a privilege to care for you in the quietest ways, when you need it most, even if you never ask. No halfway measures, no “let’s see how it goes,” just fully invested, from the first hello.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so I won’t be able to entertain others, not because I’m blind to the world, but because you’ve already set the bar. My heart’s full, and it’s full of you. There will never be room for anyone else like there was for you.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so when you’re upset, I won’t just wait for you to get over it. I’ll check in, I’ll ask how I can help, and I’ll probably be way too invested in your feelings because I care.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so when I’m with you, I’m all there, phones down, focus on you. I won’t zone out. I’ll see you, hear you, feel you in the moments we share.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so when we argue, I won’t just pretend it’s nothing. I’ll think about it, I’ll want to fix it, and I’ll come back to make sure things are right between us.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so I’m the kind of person who says “I miss you” even when I’m not supposed to. Even when it’s embarrassing. Even when I know you’ll roll your eyes.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so I’ll show up, at the weirdest times, just to let you know that you’ve crossed my mind.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so when it’s good, it’s great. I don’t half-love, half-care. If I’m in, I’m all in. And that’s exactly how I want it.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so when you leave, it won’t be easy for me. I’ll feel it. I’ll think about it. And I’ll be learning to let go, slowly, one day at a time.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so when I’m with you, I’ll give you all the moments I can. The good, the bad, the everything, because when I show up, it’s always with the intention of being real.

Fortunately, I’m not nonchalant, so you’ll always know how much I appreciate you. It won’t be hidden or unspoken. I’ll show it in the little things, in the “thank yous,” in the way I notice the small details that make you, you.